A View From Someone Who Knew
It's so very sad that when you are lucky enough to find a good soul in this world, then love is so very easy, but emotions are harder to define. You are a beautiful soul. Van Gogh, Mozart, Einstein, Hellen Keller and Albert Schwitzer are in good company with you. They were restless and caring souls, sensitive, very good and kind. But most people never saw their true inner goodness. I see those same inner goodnesses in you.
I feel very lucky to have been able to touch that goodness in some small way. The world is so cruel and unfair. Sensitive souls can feel for other people so easily. I see that so easily in you. You are a sensitive and kind soul. That's something you should never compromise. But to be fair to other people, you must be fair with yourself.
There is a beautiful light that shines inside you Kate. When I see that light fade out, it saddens me. I feel very lucky to have seen it. I hope others will be lucky enough to see what I saw and felt from you. Regardless of what happened between us, you touched my life in a wonderful way. I've always seen the beauty in you. Your bright eyes that showed a pureness of mind, that seemed clouded by the cruelness of the true world. I love THAT Kate so very deeply.
You have had a man's total love. My love. You are a loving soul. I think that is why the world gets to you so easily. You become hurt and offended. I'm so sorry. I wish they could all see. I wish that I had been stronger for you. I failed you. But I didn't fail myself.
I hope some of this makes sense. Remember this man who once loved you with all of his heart. His head just wasn't strong enough. Our lives once became one. You are part of my life forever. There is no going back. No changing history. Your soul has touched mine and for that I will always be grateful. I will love you forever.
Thanks for reading this and for understanding.